I had an entire blog written about this past weeks events, but I could not bring myself to publish it. Interesting for me since I really don't care if I upset people with my opinion. It's just that, my opinion. But I will say the following and then it will most likely be the last time you hear from me about it.
As humans we want to know WHY. We want to associate a reason for everything that happens. There was no God, God was removed from school, blame the gays, stricter gun laws, blame Obama, blame Dr.'s for not prescribing the correct meds, blame the government for removing mental health care funds...the point is, people are going to blame whoever they want, based on whatever their OWN beliefs may be, because that is just how we function, we have to blame someone. Or something. The point is, the person to blame is no longer here. We will never know. The police will form an opinion on it, but we will never know the real reason. Speculating why really doesn't do anyone any favors. Especially the survivors. Because getting the answer will not bring them back.
I don't know why. I don't know why right now there are 20 kids somewhere in America who are starving, who are malnourished, who are being beaten, abused mentally, emotionally and physically, who are being bullied because of their beliefs, or worse yet taken and being used in human trafficking...since that is out of sight and out of mind, we don't have to think much about it...but it's happening. Right now as I type this. No I am not minimizing what happened in CT, it just happens to be what is at the forefront of the new age of technology today, and what happened will be in our faces for quite awhile. It's raw. It's horrible. It's unfathomable for most of us...but so much happens daily that is, so much that we never see.
I don't have kids. I am not about to tell you or anyone what kids should be told on how to deal with this or cope or understand. I am 40 and I don't understand. I do understand that I am not going to spew my opinion on WHY because I have no earthly idea. Blame God? Or his lack of presence? Hypocritical. Some horrible crimes have been committed by people who were raised in God fearing homes. I blame no one but the one who instituted the whole act. I do not know what was missing in his life or what caused him to go to these extremes, but he did and the reality of it is a lot of innocent people are no longer alive.
I was born and raised Catholic. I am not going to explain anything about my religious beliefs or how I was raised or why. I will tell you that there are two words that my mother told me, probably within the last 15 years, that will resonate with me for the rest of my life. And it is what I believe. And it is what I need to believe to get me through every single day of my own life, which is the only one I need to be concerned about. Those two words? Free Will. He gave us Free Will. Does that make it easier for me to understand why some children will never grow up? No, but it allows me to place the blame on the one person who carried out this heinous crime. And only him.
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