Tuesday, December 27, 2011

All Alone at Lambeau Field...



I have felt alone in a crowded room.  I have felt alone with a group of friends.  I have felt alone in a church full of people.  I have felt alone, when I was actually, alone.  And I am quite used to being in the minority.  But I have never felt more alone or so much the MINORITY as I did in Lambeau Field on Christmas night as one of 5 Chicago Bear fans within 100 miles. 

Prior to entering the stadium, it was all fun and merriment.  Tons of tailgaters, lots of Merry Christmas and camaraderie, people singing, people laughing, footballs being thrown, brats cooking and the beer flowing.  They even welcomed me with open arms in the restroom line.  Probably because no one cares who uses a Porta Potty when it is 17 degrees outside. 

I should have secretly gone as a Bears fan and when I say secretly, I mean I should have worn Green and Yellow and HID my clothes.  It didn’t get ugly until I went to go into the stadium and of course I was in such awe of the moment, that I thankfully took it all in stride.  The gentleman taking my ticket, laughed hysterically at me (I should add that I was all decked out in Bears hat, Bears Jacket (3 of them), Bears scarf, even my Orange Keens)…BIG MISTAKE.  I looked like that fish you see on the National Geographic shows, which thinks swimming off on his own will somehow do him good, only to be eaten alive by the predator.  In hindsight I would have probably told him to kiss my butt because Trevor was taking me on a tour of the stadium, but he laughed at me hysterically saying “not only was I at the wrong place, but I was going in the wrong door because my seat was on the other end.”  Merry Christmas to you too Jackwagon! 



For lack of better terminology, the game changed when I set foot inside the stadium.  It was all business.  The niceties spread on the outside in the parking lots, were to remain in the parking lots.  There was a game to be won and it didn’t matter what team they had to go through.  It did not help that they were playing their longtime rivals (my beloved Bears) and that there is a tremendous amount of animosity.

I am not sure if I went into it so awestruck that I was dumb to the concept that I was outnumbered, or if I really believed in my heart it would be fun and people would be jovial.  Oh they were jovial alright.  As long as the Packers were scoring.  When the Bears scored their first touchdown I screamed like I do at home and was immediately told to sit my ass down.  Well…for some unknown reason I did.  I suppose knowing that I was one Bear fan out of 73,000 probably helped me sit my butt down, but if you know me at all you know I love confrontation…it took every ounce of willpower I had to actually do that…sit my ass down.  I never cheered again, the rest of the game.  I did silently.  To myself.  Bundled up praying to God, not only for my life, but for the Bears to pull out some miracle.  The Packers needed to win this game to secure home field advantage during the playoffs.  The Bears needed to win this game to not be eliminated from the Playoffs.  I wanted to cry not only because I was experiencing this, but what was I going to do if the Bears did win?  I guess take off all my clothes and bury them in a trash can. 

The story I have just told does not do justice for how much fun I actually had with Karen, Trevor and Samantha.  I have not seen Karen in over 11 years…it was as if we had never let that many years go between us…that to me is a GREAT friend.  We laughed.  Hard enough I almost peed my pants, on more than one occasion.  Trevor was an amazing host and tour guide.  I did not care where our seats were, just that I was doing something I never dreamed I would do in a million years.  To top that off, we were stopped on the freeway, literally stopped, to allow the Bears police escort through.  That was a moment you just don’t have every single day.  And God bless Karen, who kept saying, “We don’t care who wins!”  I really didn’t either and I thought everyone else would be that way as well, but I was wrong.


Despite it all, there are no words to express how I felt.  It was truly the best Christmas present ever, my only regret is that I didn’t have more time to spend with Karen.  It was a whirlwind trip, like I wasn’t even gone 24 hours.  Of which 11 were driving…but I honestly didn’t mind, because I love getaways.   And I got to see a dear friend.  And I got to cross something off my bucket list.  And it was a Christmas I will never forget.

I can rest peacefully now that my Bears are officially out of the playoff hunt and relax now.  I cannot wait until next year, because after all, as a Chicago fan, there is always next year.




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